peacefully: (Colette: colette likes puppies)
Your Personal Positive Attitude ([personal profile] peacefully) wrote2008-08-18 12:20 pm

.302.

Now that I'm not dumb, let's give this another shot

Anonymous commenting is turned ON. What I want you to do is a post a confession in a comment. It can be about anything at all. Even me, but post anonymously. It can be a deep, dark confession, or something just completely random. Has there ever been something you've always wanted to tell me, or anyone else? Now is the time. Post as often as you want, and I will most likely reply, so you may want to check back.

(Anonymous) 2008-08-18 10:26 pm (UTC)(link)
testing testing...

you are in the clear

(Anonymous) 2008-08-19 12:31 am (UTC)(link)
I feel that you and I are not as close as I want us to be. I'm not sure if there are invisible boundaries that I, myself, cannot view, but I wish that things were a bit different. Who knows what that requires, but I still wish we could be closer.

(Anonymous) 2008-08-19 04:01 am (UTC)(link)
Oh dear, I wish I was more like you. I wish I wish I wish. You have this inner peace and joy that I can never seem to touch except in sporadic bursts, or when I'm playing pretend. If you are sad you are sad, if you are angry you are angry, but you still seem to have a lovely heart that has so much joy in it. So much love. You tell me I need to have that love...and I want it! So bad! I want that joy you have. It seems so easy to obtain and yet so hard. And sometimes when you're around me I get a little from you and it's easier. I think it's cuz your love spills all over the place and onto other people you love. It's a gift, dear Anzu, don't ever forget it! And don't ever me, either, even if we part ways someday. Let's always be friends, forever and ever, because I don't think I could bear losing that love you give me. Selfish, yeah, but another thing...I want, so much, to give some of that love back to you. Because you're my friend. Because I love you too, hard as it is to show it.

[identity profile] anzu-less.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 09:58 am (UTC)(link)
I know... there are a lot of people on my friends list that I'm not close with... I don't know what that wall is either. I think somewhere inside I feel like I have to choose between real life and internet. And I think somewhere I'm just afraid that if I grow too close to a person... I'll bore them, or we'll run out of things to talk about, or something will happen... I know it's all stupid, and irrational, and stupid but... those are my thoughts.

[identity profile] anzu-less.livejournal.com 2008-08-19 10:00 am (UTC)(link)
Oh.... I don't know if I can describe how this comment makes me feel... I think I know who you are (because I can't think of anyone else in the world who would say that) and... Thank you. I'm sorry I can't... somewhere I'm still afraid I failed you.

(Anonymous) 2008-08-19 12:26 pm (UTC)(link)
But but we are friends! I think that is enough. *hug*

(Anonymous) 2008-08-19 04:35 pm (UTC)(link)
We've been so distant for a long time, I don't think it makes much of a difference in the end. We have been able to contact each other and share our love. Yet the only thing I worry about is actually speaking to you personally, which still sounds rather naive. Perhaps I'm the only one who hasn't changed between us..

Reality and the internet has its own sets of standards, just don't worry too much about either one of them. If you choose to spend more of your time in reality more than the internet, that is fine with me and it is your decision alone. There is always a next time, there is nothing wrong in what your final choice is.

Lastly, I wonder. How is it that we were able to maintain this strange bond that lasted for a long time now? It's rather funny after thinking how time has passed between all of us.. It's just awkward is all.

[identity profile] anzu-less.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 11:41 am (UTC)(link)
Definitely *hugs*

[identity profile] anzu-less.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 11:54 am (UTC)(link)
No yeah... so much time has passed. I don't know. With so many of my GT friends, when I talk to you guys... I just don't know what to say. Conversations seem to fall flat. Not only that but.. I've just lost my touch for talking to people on MSN. I don't know why but I just... have such a hard time making a convorsation float... I don't know whose fault it is... I think it's mine.

But that's why... I'm not sure exactly which GT person you are, but I think you're one. Anyway, that's everything.

[identity profile] selphius.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 06:22 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't personally care for onions... on anything. I'm sorry.

[identity profile] anzu-less.livejournal.com 2008-08-20 10:47 pm (UTC)(link)
Eew, I don't like onions either D: